Not a loss but I am not deterred

I weighed in 100g heavier than last time I went to weight watchers. This is okay. It is a mild hurdle on the path back to weight loss glory!
The comiseration KFC on the way home however was not a good idea. I even felt sick after I ate it. I really need to learn how to deal with disappointment without turning to greasy, fatty food.

Back on the wagon this morning, putting last night behind me.

The Danger Zone

I allowed myself to enter the danger zone last night. I was so incredibly hungry that the moment there was food in front of me I ate and ate. Alas the food in front of me was hot chips and chicken wings. Hmm.. Not a disaster of unbelievable proportions but a timely reminder that I have to listen to my body a bit more closely and not put off dinner until I cannot control myself.

Feeling the energy, feeling the motivation!

I wrote a plan on Monday night. I ate a good breakfast Tuesday morning (lucky me had an RDO the day after Easter Monday), then went grocery shopping for the week. Now it is Friday and I have been on track, healthy and good for three whole days. I feel great! I am proud of myself. It has been three months since I was properly following weight watchers but now I am planning and I am tracking and as I said, I am very proud of myself.

Internet, I just wanted to let you know that I feel great!

Tagged

I was tagged by Lisa (a while ago - I'm slack!), so here goes:

1. List these rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog.
3. Tell 7 unspectacular quirks about you.
4. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.
5.Link the person who tagged you.
6.Leave a comment for each blogger.

It could be nice if you post a personal photo with this post.


7 Facts About ME:
1. I have three brothers and one niece
2. I have a cat called Oscar who I am currently trying to train not to bite
3. I have two degrees (one in civil engineering and one in Arts (Ancient History))
4. I have been around the world twice but still have a ridiculous amount of things to see
5. I collect tea pots
6. I went to 7 different primary schools, 1 high school and two universities
7. I now work for the same company that brought my father to Australia from NZ when I was just born

7 Unspectacular Quirks about ME:
1. I tend to straighten things - I'm not particularly tidy but things need to be ordered
2. I drink my coffee white with two sugars and my tea black with none.
3. I get posessive of my stationery at work and tend to name it all
4. I hate doing the dishes
5. I don't own a television and haven't done for 4 years
6. I am easily distracted when there is a television in the room (since its a novelty to me)
7. I like to write letters - proper letters, on paper.

I don't know too many people in the blogosphere of weight loss just yet so I'll refrain from tagging anyone for now!

A Loss!

After a week back on track I feel brilliant! I've lost 1.3kg (that's the 800g I gained and another 500g lost! wohoo!), I am running and I'm feeling good. I tracked everything and although I still need a lot of work on the eating filling foods side I am really proud of myself.

I went for my first bike ride in about a decade this week. The darling BF bought me a second hand bike so that I could ride beside him while he runs (he's not been getting much of a workout running with me, more like a stroll in the park for him). Biking is sneaky exercise... you think you're not putting much effort in and then you hop off and your thighs hurt and your butt hurts! I liked it. Some friends of mine have just gotten roller skates so I am going to ride with them along the strand (beautiful spot up here in Townsville).

Off to Brisbane for 5 days tonight so will have to be extra focussed as I am only 300g off my 10% mark! Ahhh!

And I'm back...

So, it's taken a bit longer than planned, but I am back. I went back to my meeting last night and I'm eating my points again as of yesterday. I had gained 800g through my insane couple of months of this year but that is okay as I am going to lose it again and more!

My first goal is to stick to it this week. I don't have to lose all that 800g in one week, I just need to stick to the plan. I've been keeping up my C25K somewhat as well - I'm on week 4 now, 3rd workout this morning but I'm not quite ready for week 5 just yet so I'll keep with week 4 a little longer.

I'm back and my motivation is seeping back through me - it is an amazing feeling! It's funny but the last straw was Sunday just gone - I had a very bad food day (despite having gotten up and gone running that morning). I ate so much crap that day - my major downfall being those yum cha kits from the frozen section at the supermarket. I woke up Monday with what I can only describe as a food hangover and decided that enough was enough.

I have a goal and I'm going to make it there!

Off the Wagon & Flailing on the ground

After the utter joy and excitement of reaching my 10kg goal, I have fallen apart at the seams. I had a bad couple of weeks personally (I lost my Grandmother who had been ill for a long time, and then became extremely stressed at work) and this has translated into my life as a loss of interest in looking after my health, eating properly or really caring about anything. I have not gone to weigh in since the 19th January because I was too scared to go back and have a gain.

The flooding in Townsville hasn't helped much either. It is hard to feel inspired to get out of bed and go running when the rain is thundering down and the ground is not so much hard as slushy.

This needs to stop. I have started looking in the mirror and thinking how ugly and fat I am. I am feeling bad about myself and my life and I don't like it! When I was losing weight I felt marvellous and even though I am still fat I didn't look at myself and feel nothing but disgust!

I have started tracking again this morning. I am not going to allow these last few weeks to cause me to stop trying. I expect my next weigh in to be unpleasant but I will still be going. Wish me luck!